For a long time I felt a great deal of responsibility for other people’s experiences. I put so much pressure on myself to be what everyone needed of me, whether as a co-worker, friend, daughter, wife, and especially mother. Anytime I felt I didn’t measure up to the ideals I had created in my brain, I felt shame. Sometimes I really beat myself up about it. I’ve had days where I just wanted to lie in bed all day and swirled in thoughts of not being good enough. It was painful.
Right now, I’m in healthier head space. I’m learning to be more patient and remind myself that I’m still learning. I’m a human who’s still figuring life out. I’m further along than I used to be! I can see the progress I’ve made. I think about myself in high school. I was a socially awkward introvert. I struggled in school. I had acne, haha! I have come a long way. I acknowledge my patient moments and efforts.
So sometimes, just like flowers, it just takes some time to bloom. Be patient with yourself and enjoy the journey.
The February candle has really grown on me! I always worry about a floral, but this one is heavenly and sweet, without being too sweet. If you like jasmine and gardenia, you’ll love Floral Market. I’m so excited for you to try it and see what you think!